Post by cirno on Apr 18, 2011 12:46:59 GMT -5
This is a true piece of writing written by an "Acquaintance" of mine all about himself
My life in one word would be shite.. for starters i cant hold down a proper relationship without some tosser coming along and splitting us up, i can only talk to a few people about my deep down true thoughts
and one of those people is danny, i've loved her since i met her, she finished her bf for me but now shes getting all the attention off the lads and likes this other lad called mark.
I know that shes gonna dump me & then their gunna get together soon, one of my best mates in my life tom (i've been through
everything with him, his dad dieing, him having cancer twice and hes been through so much with me aswell) has taken an overdose and is now in hospital My other best friend natalie and we argue constantly and it upsets me everytime.. she constantly chooses ben over me, and constantly has a go at me if i do little things wrong that bugs her, i fake a smile everyday to try prove to my parents and to my brother that everythings ok.
The guy that natalie always chooses over me - ben is constantly giving me abuse about simple things because he cant get over one thing that happened in the past, My sister moved out and my mum is constantly in tears, which upsets me. I Cant tell people my true feelings, and i know on the outside i seem all confident and joyful, but on the inside im quite self concious and constantly worry about peoples thoughts of me, but i keep all my feelings bottled up and i worry about things far too much, my life is a nightmare and out of the two of my parents my mum is the only one i can tell my feelings to but shes always at work and i hardly get to see her, people judge me far too much and assume things of me, like i cant do certain things and because of the way i dress i must act a certain way.
From the way i type on msn, people assuming thing that im some sort of slut. but i arent. i dont get much attention off gals, and the ones i do get attention of just like me as a mate, i can hardly talk to many lads without getting into an arguement with them, i find it so hard to talk to lads and thats mostly why i have so many girl contacts on my msn. people dont understand how depressed i could be.. they take my love, caring and advise for granted and frankly dont give a toss about me. At one stage in my life i actually considered taking my own life it got that bad, my childhood was so hard, i had no friends, nobody to tell my feelings to, and thats how i've grown up, not telling anyone about my feelings towards them and i always make wrong decisons when it comes to relationships, yeah im sure plenty of people have worse lives than me, but the people who im close to dont realise how much of a struggle it is just living and taking each breath.
My life in one word would be shite.. for starters i cant hold down a proper relationship without some tosser coming along and splitting us up, i can only talk to a few people about my deep down true thoughts
and one of those people is danny, i've loved her since i met her, she finished her bf for me but now shes getting all the attention off the lads and likes this other lad called mark.
I know that shes gonna dump me & then their gunna get together soon, one of my best mates in my life tom (i've been through
everything with him, his dad dieing, him having cancer twice and hes been through so much with me aswell) has taken an overdose and is now in hospital My other best friend natalie and we argue constantly and it upsets me everytime.. she constantly chooses ben over me, and constantly has a go at me if i do little things wrong that bugs her, i fake a smile everyday to try prove to my parents and to my brother that everythings ok.
The guy that natalie always chooses over me - ben is constantly giving me abuse about simple things because he cant get over one thing that happened in the past, My sister moved out and my mum is constantly in tears, which upsets me. I Cant tell people my true feelings, and i know on the outside i seem all confident and joyful, but on the inside im quite self concious and constantly worry about peoples thoughts of me, but i keep all my feelings bottled up and i worry about things far too much, my life is a nightmare and out of the two of my parents my mum is the only one i can tell my feelings to but shes always at work and i hardly get to see her, people judge me far too much and assume things of me, like i cant do certain things and because of the way i dress i must act a certain way.
From the way i type on msn, people assuming thing that im some sort of slut. but i arent. i dont get much attention off gals, and the ones i do get attention of just like me as a mate, i can hardly talk to many lads without getting into an arguement with them, i find it so hard to talk to lads and thats mostly why i have so many girl contacts on my msn. people dont understand how depressed i could be.. they take my love, caring and advise for granted and frankly dont give a toss about me. At one stage in my life i actually considered taking my own life it got that bad, my childhood was so hard, i had no friends, nobody to tell my feelings to, and thats how i've grown up, not telling anyone about my feelings towards them and i always make wrong decisons when it comes to relationships, yeah im sure plenty of people have worse lives than me, but the people who im close to dont realise how much of a struggle it is just living and taking each breath.
